It happened. I hit rock bottom.
The latter half of 2017 has not been kind to us. Long story short, hubs finally got a year round job in September, after struggling working seasonally for the past 9 years. Then we found out they had lied to him about what the job was, when it was and the hours he would be working. Ok, so we deal with it. Then in October, he ended up coming down with pneumonia. It knocked him OUT. He never gets sick more than a day, this had him laid out for two weeks. So new job fired him (the beauty of a right to work state, you can be fired for any reason, including sickness with a Dr. note). He was finally just approved for unemployment which is a whopping $200 a week. While waiting for unemployment, we went through all of our savings and maxed out our small credit cards.
My Etsy shop was making just enough to keep us a float through Halloween. Then crickets. Unfortunately having JUST started it, it is slow going. We had to borrow money to buy Christmas presents for the kids and help pay the bills. We were able to get a few presents, and pay a few bills.
But it wasn’t enough.
Today our electricity was turned off. Even though I had just made a payment, it wasn’t enough. We found a mouse nest in the insulation of our stove. FanGirl had strep throat last week and then passed it on to MiniMe who then gave it to me. Today, the big girls are at school, MiniMe is laying down in her room, and Hubs is at a job interview, so here I am sitting in my living room in tears, no electricity, half empty fridge, barely any presents under the tree, and a house that looks like a haboob swept through it. I’m wondering to myself what I did wrong, why was karma punishing me? You know how I said things weren’t working? Well this just cemented it. This is my rock bottom. There is no where to go but up from here.
Tomorrow starts a new day, a new chapter.
We were able to borrow the $300 we needed to get the electricity turned back on. Tomorrow we should get hubs first unemployment check, and hopefully last, as the job interview went well and he will be starting this new job on Thursday or Friday. It’s not great, but it will keep our head above water for the moment. So tonight I am sitting down and looking at what I can change NOW. I can’t fix everything right now. But I can fix some of it. So here it goes, here starts a new chapter in my life. I can’t let my family go through this again. I will turn our circumstances around. I have to.
I’ve been brainstorming
This is what I have come up with. First I had to ask myself some questions
What exactly needs improvement?
What am I doing wrong?
How do I fix it.
These are just quick basics, I will expand on them as I progress,
I came up with 5 main things:
Spending too much, not making enough
- Create a budget
- Stick to budget
- Make more money
Not making enough $$ No one knows we are here
- Create more new products
- Market, market, market
- Build online presence
Windswept, unorganized, too cluttered
- Follow daily schedule
Not spending enough time together
- Do more family activities
- Make sure everyone gets one-on-one time
- Re-implement Family Dinners
Not taking care of myself
- Take time for self care
- Eat better